you know the words, but you/it won't find me standing alone as I am out with the Nutty one tonight, and I will be armed with camera, as even though it's not going to be blue, it will be full and I'm sure if I play around with lenses and filters, I can make it look blue :) In fact for my fb status I changed the colour of one I took a few years back to blue and added it (and it was taken with a red filter at the time so I impressed myself I was able to change the colour). In fact I am that pleased with myself I'll share it with you all - cos I'm nice like that :)
I want to try and continue along the whole "things I have learned" that I started when I came back from my last camping trip, but other than learning just how marvellous I really am (isn't it amazing how much different life and your own perspective can be when you eliminate negativity from your life?) I've not really learned anything at all this week. Ooh; ooh. I lie. I did learn something. I learned that my body has shrunk by 11 inches.. woop woop. Obviously that's a total from all over and not just around my middle, which really is still very round, but in just 4 weeks I think that is quite an amazing feat. One day it may even notice :) It's weird because although I am feeling so much better, thinking and acting positively, and believing that I really can have what I want (I now know exactly what that is too, so I have learned something else this week - sheesh, it just keeps getting better) I did still have a slight wobble yesterday when I looked down and saw that my fat round middle, just didn't appear to be getting smaller. However, it has (I got out the tape measure) but the reason it didn't look to me like it was is because I was looking at in relation to the rest of me and it's all relative to each other. One day though it will definitely look a lot smaller - I'd love to say it would look flat but I don't think I have ever had a flat stomach in my life; hormones have always given the appearance that it's rounded, but as long as it's a smaller round then I will be a mighty happy bunny :)
I actually have nothing of any interest to say - or share (yeah, yeah; I know, I don't normally so today's no different to any other) but I promised myself I would keep this as up to date as I could, and so I'm doing all I can to stick to that :) Oh my; does this mean now I have no drama's I'm going to become even more boring than I was before? Eek; I guess I best get out and find something to entertain myself with :) I have another 10 years of owning this domain, I can't let them go to waste :) Maybe I'll just fill it with photo's. Yeah, that could work :) But I like the idea of getting out and making something of my life far more (photo's can add to that). I like the idea of having something to say, which from now on should all be positive too as the negatives are no longer getting in the way. It's funny because I've slept better, I've not felt stressed or tired, and have in fact felt marvellous since it all changed. I was worried for so long it would only add to the hassle, I now think I should have made the changes years ago. Mind you, it does help that I also have some pretty amazing people in my life right now too, and whether they know it or not, they've helped me get through some stuff recently, and made me see myself for who I truly am; I must remember to thank them.
Another thing I've noticed, is that along with this new (or should that be improved) me, the confidence and the positive attitude, work has also picked up. I got told once the shop is an extension of me, and I guess in a way it is, so if I'm feeling on top of things, that has to come across in how I work, and they always say like attracts like; if I'm feeling positive maybe I am sending out those kinds of 'vibes' and am getting back what I put out there :) That leads me on (nicely) to the fact I need to put myself out there more also and I think the more weight that comes off, the more confidence I will have, the more I will get myself back out on the playing fields (metaphorically speaking of course). I'm never going to meet the man of my dreams, if I don't get out there looking for him - and if I've already met him (for all we know I may well have done !!) but staying at home alone isn't going to get anything sorted.
I had a right scary moment the other morning. Since embarking on this new eating plan, I've noticed that my hair is in the best condition of it's life (normally it's lank and greasy even after it's just been washed). Because of this I don't need to wash it every morning any more, but as someone that can't deal with dirty hair, I bought a dry shampoo to use every other day instead. Spraying it on as per the instructions (I sprayed it outside so as not to choke the dog or cat) when I got back inside and looked in the mirror I was mortified to see I looked like a cross between Morticia and my Mum :) (she thinks that part is highly amusing). I got a glimpse of how I will look with grey hair, and while I actually think it will quite suit me, I'm really not ready to give in to it just yet; it really did scare me.. hahaha. Add to that the spots I've developed (I never really suffered with any kind of acne as a kid, but as a "woman of a certain age" I'm having a nightmare with the bloody things) I really did see into the future.. I no likey it much :)
|Had to go black/white with it to hide the blotchy red cheeks :)|